Today it is 7 years since Cam was diagnosed. Its a day when I really don't know what to think should we be sad because he ever had cancer?? Or should we celebrate the fact he is still here despite the fact he is still fighting ???
Its like my heart is pounding so hard in my chest and the bad memories just keep replaying and once again the what ifs and the whys resurface. Funny how a date can become so significant.
My brother said to me this morning - Its not like someone died why let it get it to you so much??
but for us Cam did die that day - we took him into hospital one happy go lucky little boy and bought him out a bundle of anxiety and a line in his chest. I know that sounds mad but we don't have the Cameron we are suppose to have !
Drugs and their side effects have took their toll on both appearance and ability.
Im sure the only way anyone truly understands is if they have been there and I don't wish that on anyone.
We are heading out in a bit as a family to the cinema its time to remember the most important thing is that we are still all here and we are all still standing strong TOGETHER x x x
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